You've already grieved three outcomes that haven't happened yet.
Your brain lives in the subjunctive tense. What if you'd taken the other job. What if you'd said that thing differently. What if this is the decision that changes everything. You don't just consider possibilities — you inhabit them, running through alternate timelines so vividly they start to feel real. It's not about solving the problem. It's about not being able to leave the possibility space. The weight of all the paths not taken is something you carry quietly. The good news: that imagination is also why you see options other people don't.
Get your read — free on iPhoneyou play out every what-if because committing to one reality means letting all the others go — and that feels like loss.