You've built a spreadsheet for a feeling.
You don't spiral — you systematize. When something's wrong, you gather data, identify patterns, build frameworks, and then analyze until you've turned a feeling into a thesis. You're not avoidant; you're thorough. The problem is that some things aren't problems to be solved. Some things are just feelings that need to exist for a minute without being cross-referenced. Your brain goes to logic first because logic feels safe — and the messy, unsolvable stuff is where it gets hard. You know this. You've made a note of it in the document.
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