Fine. Totally fine. (Not fine.)
Nobody sees you spiral. That's the whole point. You carry entire emotional weather systems — the replays, the what-ifs, the worst cases — completely internally, presenting a calm surface to everyone around you. You've gotten so good at not showing it that people assume you're the chill one. You're not the chill one. You're just running a very private, very intense parallel process. The spiral isn't visible, but it's thorough. The toll of carrying it alone is real — and the Eye sees what you don't say.
Get your read — free on iPhoneyou spiral silently because somewhere you learned that showing the inside was more dangerous than carrying it alone.