You say you're chill. You are not chill.
You have built an entire personality around being low-maintenance. "I don't care where we eat." "It's totally fine that you forgot." "I'm not like other girlfriends." And some of that IS real — you genuinely don't sweat the small stuff. But here's what's happening underneath: you suppress your real feelings because you're terrified that having needs makes you 'too much.' You'd rather slowly lose yourself than risk being called dramatic. The chill is a shield. And it works — until it doesn't. Until one day everything you've swallowed comes out sideways over something tiny, and everyone's confused because you were SO CHILL. You're allowed to want things. Wanting things doesn't make you crazy.
Get your read — free on iPhoneyou perform 'chill' so well that nobody knows you're drowning — including, sometimes, you.