You consistently chose the WORSE option. On purpose. Are you okay?
You looked at two terrible options and consistently picked the MORE terrible one. Live on a 24/7 livestream? Sure. Swap bodies with your ex? Why not. Your search history posted publicly? Bring it on. Either you have absolutely nothing to hide or you have SO MUCH to hide that you've achieved a zen-like acceptance of total exposure. Your decision-making pattern isn't chaotic — it's intentionally self-destructive in the most entertaining way possible. You're the person who would watch the world burn and roast marshmallows over it. Therapists would have a field day. TikTok would make you famous.
Get your read — free on iPhoneyou chose the worst option on purpose. repeatedly. which means either you don't take anything seriously or you take everything so seriously that.