Guarded wit. Grief handled alone.
You keep the walls up and the jokes sharp, because letting people close is exactly how they get the leverage to hurt you. You handle the heavy stuff alone at 2am and show up the next day acting completely fine. Your wit is armor, but it's also proof you're paying close attention. The Eye reads under it: you're not cold, you're careful — and the grief you carry solo would flatten someone who actually talked about theirs.
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