You're not scared. You just always find a reason the scary thing wasn't worth doing.
You don't experience fear as fear. You experience it as a sudden, reasonable-sounding case for why now isn't the right time. The text you don't send, the application you'll 'do tomorrow,' the conversation that 'isn't worth the drama' — each one arrives dressed as a decision, not a dodge. The trick your brain plays is making avoidance feel like wisdom, so you rarely catch it happening. But the things you most want are sitting on the other side of the doors you keep finding excellent reasons not to open. The relief of not doing it never lasts as long as the wondering does.
Get your read — free on iPhoneyou don't avoid things — you 'decide' not to do them, fast, with great reasons. and the thing you want is always behind the door you just talked yourself out of.