Bad — but you understand why. That's the tragedy.
You're the character who became the villain because the hero path broke you first. You're not evil — you're in pain. And the world didn't care enough to notice the difference. You relate to antagonists because they're honest about their wounds. They don't perform goodness. They don't pretend. Your darkness isn't something to fix — it's something to understand. The soft villain archetype is the most human one: someone who was hurt, didn't heal, and built armor out of anger instead. You deserve a redemption arc. The question is whether you'll let yourself have one.
Get your read — free on iPhoneyou relate to villains because at some point you realized being good didn't protect you from being hurt.