You exist to make everyone else's life bearable.
You're the reason the group doesn't implode. When things get dark, you crack a joke. When the tension is unbearable, you do something so unhinged it resets the room. Everyone thinks you're the lighthearted one, the easy one, the one who's always fine. You're not. But you learned early that being funny keeps people close and being sad pushes them away, so you chose your weapon accordingly. Behind every perfectly timed joke is a person who understands pain well enough to make it funny. That's not a flex. That's a coping mechanism.
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